Thursday, September 01, 2005
Scary dreams ahaunting
Played mahjong at jonathan’s place last night and won $8. =) Slept a while before heading down to gym. But the reason why I woke up on time to leave the house for gym was another morning-mare. This time many people are trying to kill me. It is freaky, and I kept holding onto this really sharp knife. And there would be this fella lurking outside the window behind the curtains where I can see his shadow, with a gun in his hand. Changed scene, my next assassinator (different assassinator, the other disappeared, couldn’t remember why) had two axes! Woot! Getting medieval now. Then finally due to all the shock and trauma I was admitted into hospital and due to all that shock and scare I became really jittery and there’s still another person trying to kill me. We drew the blinds and people who were supposed to be my family and close friends all stayed in the room to protect me, though they all looked like they were right out of an American sitcom. God knows why I didn’t have a Chinese family in the dream, maybe I wasn’t even Chinese at all! Ahah. And I hid two knives under my pillow, even though I was drugged, to one point they actually gave me some injection to sorta paralyze me, or just make me sleep for a looooooooooooooong time. But funnily I managed to hide the knives under my pillow, much to the reassurances that I’d be protected by all the people in the room. Finally they relented and let me have a knife under my pillow instead of two, just so that I’d feel safe. And after all that prowling by the third assassinator, he finally attacked and was finally shot to death by my ‘dad’ (a latin American, haha), but not before my dad shot himself to death, apparently I couldn’t quite understand why. And finally I woke up. This wasn’t as scary as the dream about my brother committing suicide but it sure freaked me out with the number of people wanting to finish me off. The fight or flight response sure tensed me up. The recent spate of scary dreams are freaking me out, but yet I have not much control over them, except to sleep less I guess.
My demons are back again.
Unknown at 4:13 pm