Thursday, February 26, 2004
how do you explain the feeling when you've been so wanting to just catch a glimpse of this person. but when you do you see him with someone else. had dinner with one of my friend at bird park. there's this jap, indonesian, korean restaurant up there. n after dinner i saw a maroon hyundai sonata. guess i've been wanting to see this car for quite some time and hoping darn badly that the car plate was SFA **** * and yeah i saw that car there. i did a double take. i had the biggest shock of my life. i mean like what the hell?!! sms-ed him enjoying yourself with someone at bird park. true enough he was with his new gf. i feel like the blardy biggest idiot in the entire world. when everyone was persuading me that you should get a better guy etc. in my heart i nvr really did let him go coz i alwez felt he was one guy that i dun mind marrying. he's the kind husband material. i dun intend to get married soon but u noe this kinda guy is not the kind u just go wham bang thank you m'am n say goodbye. u wanna b frenz even after y'all have broken up. you still harbour that little hope that one day y'all will get back together. i alwez felt that i was the only one who knows how i should handle the situation when i broke up with him. sigh i guess like every other time everyone else was right. hah. i feel as though a knife's been pierced through my heart and been twisted around. all for a guy who 2 months down the road got another girlfriend. i mean i really dunno how i should feel. and there i was with a friend whom i just knew, n our first outing together. u dun just bawl in front of that person right?! plus i'm much stronger than that. or at least i'd have myself to believe. i mean well maybe it's good. i should finally get over him. i should have 2 months ago n not waited til now. have an early microsoft seminar tomorrow n i haf to go alone. sigh.. dun really want to go alone wish i can just skip it. but hey i'm supposed to go there n pick up some stuff. grrr.. not the best day. this morning i was late coz the train that came were all not meant for passenger service. like what the hell. 3 of them!! thank you so much. well looking on the brighter side tomorrow can only get better huh. it had better. plus friday there's the fujitsu asiapac conquest. i better train up my upper body n make sure i clmb damn fast. sigh. n my mouse has officially died on me. shall just get the cheap mouse from office which works good.
And my whole world came crumbling down..... Unknown at 12:18 am