Wednesday, December 18, 2002
haiz just realised that noy wrote so much and i haven't read her blog for so long. seriously i love her so much i dun wanna lose her. being ultra nice to her coz i dowan to zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 (something like got bf then forget abt all ur frenz) yep. she's still my darling. missed irritating her all the time. sadness. i keep comparing my bf to her. haha if only he's like her then i'd b really happy. i keep wondering if i really like him. suddenly i had a thought yesterday that i was just using him and that i didn't really love him at all. it's so scary.
there was this one time where i really wanted this pair of nike shorts. i kept admiring it and was saving marnee for it. one day i took the train n fell asleep when i woke up i had this total disgust for that pair of shorts. i didn't get it in the end. now when i see it i dun have the longing for it. but i dun hate it. i was worried that one day it'll happen to a person in place of a material thing and now it has happened. it's so scary.
Unknown at 1:04 am