Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Why so much anger?

Forgiveness is something i can no longer grant. The weird part is it took so long for the anger to finally hit me and then decide that this is something i cannot ever forgive. How silly i was to give in, only because i wanted it so badly. Only for one reason, to say it was mine even if it wasn't totally mine. Yes when i want to be cruelly selfish i can be. I wonder which is worse to be cruelly selfish at that point of time or to no longer be able to grant forgiveness to someone who has betrayed my trust. Although it is the same difference to me. Just a question i'm pondering over.

And in fact i'll say this now, if ever Jon betrays me, i will not trust men ever again. This i'm quite sure of. Although i know he won't. But just stating the firm stand i have towards men and cheating. But then again think about it, if he were to really cheat, it doesn't matter to him what my stand is. Hahahahah.

Unknown at 1:15 am