Thursday, February 21, 2008
Artistic eccentricities or pure laziness?
As a designer, it's quite shitty to run this thing as a business, you'd really wanna work according to your whims. Sometimes when you can't create, you simply can't, or maybe just won't (due to a lack of will and lump it altogether as artistic eccentricities). After the break up I really didn't wanna make anything, but I had orders to fulfill, some of which I have delayed til now. After that I was too happy going out with Jonathan to want to make things coz well I've got better things to do now! After sometime sensibility starts to kick in, or maybe in general my motor is well oiled and raring to go, and now i'm back to crafting. How do you ever explain all these to your customers? I've realised I had a lack of structure in the past year, working is what I need to help me maintain some sense of semblence of structure instead of disintegrating as and when I like.
I've come to realise a lot of things in the past year. In Feb 08, I finally manage to look back at 07 and look at the lessons that I ought to carry on in my life. Whether it's because Jon is around, or I'm finally getting some sense into my head, I'm thankful either way.
1. Don't allow myself to get into things I don't really want to do. I very very very much wanted to quit school last year, looking back I should have. I spent 1 whole month crying myself to sleep, I still didn't get my way. When the motivation is no longer there, no point holding onto something which you know you won't do with all your heart. This is something that I'm very bad at, maybe i'll be able to correct it in time.
2. Reactive is bad, proactive is good. Is motivation also linked to proactivity? Yes.
Considering what a heavy morning this has been, I think it's time for some breakfast. Yum. I'm also having my baby for dinner, double yum! Oh happy days!
Unknown at 9:05 am