Saturday, May 14, 2005
my importance? none, whatsoever.
Robots can now clone themselves. And look who are the makers: Geeks!!
And i have wasted 2 days watching animes and doing nothing much. Went down for training today, apparently some "clinic" was a national's training clinic. Coach said i should come down for club training first before coming for national's training. If i had known i wouldn't have wasted my time and come down either. And she said because it's not good for the club's name. Yeah thank you very much. Tell me anymore reason why i should not go down for training? I just need one, and i'll sell my boots right away. Rugby now no longer holds such a big importance for me. I enjoyed it last time coz of the friendship, I miss the team i was with in the first yr of my poly days. Now... I dunno.. Nothing in the team is a pull factor for me anymore. It's sad but it's true.
Just like my friendship with my poly classmates. I don't feel like organising anything for them anymore. Think i'll wash my hands off this friendship after huili's birthday. It's not so much appreciation now, but i just feel that without me it wouldn't make a difference to their lives. Or rather i don't make a difference to their lives. And if i don't why let myself think that i do? It's just silly and stupid. Emotional investment sucks shit and this has no returns. Might as well dump it fast.Plus to meet up seems like a chore for them, might as well lessen one burden.
Unknown at 3:21 am