Sunday, February 13, 2005
tired, very tired. Lost $20+ at emi's place, came home with nothing in my pockets. totally empty. first time i ever let myself do that, because i kept thinking i had a $50 in my wallet, turns out that the $50 was still in my notebook unretrieved, undeposited. I hope i win some money back frm huili's place tomorrow. argh... did a bit of rushing about today, CNY visiting, present buying, azhar's chalet, ryan's farewell, emi's place for dinner. Would have joined ray at liquid room if not for me being too tired. In fact i should have left emi's place earlier, i made so many mistakes on the road, horrible. So many other road users horned at me. Sigh i hate this kinda feeling. The feeling of inadequacy, of how lousy you are. When i was close to home the low petrol indicator lit up, then i realised yeah i hafta top up petrol, thankfully i was near home and near a petrol kiosk. Not checking stuff which i ought to, i hate it. Rushing off without checking properly, another hate. And then when i reached home, michelle called me saying that she saw our lecturer in poly at this stretch of gay pubs. LOL. that was hilarious, i would never have imagined. He struck me as a yuppie, but never as a gay. I remember once when i went to the front of the LT to ask him some questions during the break or was it after the lecture was over and then i got flashed in the eye by his diamond ring. Whoa til now i will never ever forget that moment. The glare of the diamond was so strong. anyway i hear crickets even though my windows are closed, which is weird. And then i have bad news. Today just wasn't such a good day after all. SIGH. Next week's lunch at my place cancelled, which is good in a way, at least ppl now don't have to travel to boon lay for lunch and then bedok for dinner. I'll just play my game, i can only say i'm totally ill-prepared. Long day ahead tomorrow, assignment uncompleted. I wanna be left alone. I dunno really. I know some stuff may not make much sense, too tired to explain further, if u know it you will understand, if not, i dunno go figure it out yourself or something.
Unknown at 12:49 am