Thursday, February 17, 2005
I've a gap in me that cannot be filled. I've tried many things, many ways. Seeking closure, but yet the moment i get closer to getting this gap filled, i try to push it away. When someone knows me too well, i get scared. The very same thing i crave, i fear it the most. Literally speaking it's pretty what i fear the most. 2nd comes failing. I'm sorry, i never meant it to be this way.
And something for you guys to ponder upon. I read in my lecture notes that emotions are all conditioned. Feelings to a partner is conditioned. So there's many ways to take this, but let's say my current stand is that if feelings to a partner is conditioned in the sense that perhaps you don't know how to 'love' a partner, you can be conditioned to know how to shower love on your partner. There's also that maybe u don't really LOVE this person, but slowly from a like, it grows into a love. Is it true? I don't know, but i'd like to know everyone's perspective. Hey if you guys comment on such stuff it'll help me become a better psychologist, so u guys better gimme something worth thinking ah.
Unknown at 3:15 am