Sunday, September 23, 2007
Fleeting thoughts
I had much wanted to blog about something til i managed to log in and click on my blog and I lost that train of thought. Laggy singnet's fault. 6 more days before thesis submission, 6 more days to freedom, be it real or perceived. 6 more days til my current burdens are lifted and exchanged for new ones. This day has been a really long wait. I'm not even confident of a 2nd upper right now. If i get a 2nd lower, i will not be surprised, but i will not be happy. This school year has been so unproductive i feel so ashamed. Maybe i still prefer IT and playing with boxes. That's the area i excelled because there were few grey areas, but maybe i wouldn't have survived uni in that major. Who knows? Do i truly know where and what i want to be? I can only say with 80% yes. I think i need to travel on my own to find myself again. The person i love most is pragmatic and not an idealist, while I'm ever the Libran, always indulging in ideals and hope. Will I manage to find that strength within to convince myself that my dreams, hopes and ideals can be fought for in my own way? Or will i just flow with the masses of uninspired, unsure and unrealized til the end.
Labels: shit hits the fan
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