Thursday, February 01, 2007

I will take you on, but my guess is it's not today

So I've combined my separate accounts for this site and earring addict. I got a little shocked thinking that I've done something stupid and irreversible, thankfully blogger is smart enough to include a "select the blogs you wish the public to see". So customers won't be reading my personal life and my rants. Then I'd have to censor more stuff, which is boring and tiresome. Anyway was reading blinkymummy's post

"If you meet with obstacles/'injustices' etc, grumble a little and move on. Do not dwell on it because nobody gives a shite about yourself, except you.

Stare at it in the eye and say aloud:

I will take you on.

Until you cannot anymore..."

Then I realised I have been too comfortable for a very long time and I'm really bored of this. I used to challenge myself a lot more. Especially the boundaries regarding gender. Maybe that's why I pushed myself harder in poly, just so to prove that I'm not a girl who comes in here to piggyback on the guys' efforts. Even in making earrings I'm very conventional and lots of things in life. I somehow lost that edge, that hunger and I'm very sick of this. I promise I'll pick up shooting this year, when I earn some money from my little business. I know the arena which I enjoy my fights most and I want to go back again. I am sick and tired of writing reports, I've a 2000 word critique to do by tomorrow and I've only done 102 words. I hope this year I'll learn my lessons faster and do something about it. My rants always seem to involve my laziness and procrastination and how many words i've done for my reports. Hopefully you'll see lesser of it.

Unknown at 9:25 pm