Oops, this was meant to be posted right after the previous post, so here it goes.

Forgot to add something to the previous post, you can say that i could explain it to them, especially since they're doing it right in front of you (while i'm having a conversation with someone sitting opposite me at the table). It's an opportunity to clarify the inaccuracy of their assumptions, since they were doing it right in front of me, as opposed to if they did it behind my back while i wasn't around. It would have changed the mood at the table, which i really detest doing, because i like to enjoy my night out too. And yes, the happiness and harmony shouldn't be disrupted, as much as i can prevent it. Or perhaps as with other aspects of my life, sometimes i think i don't wish to be understood. Maybe because i feel vulnerable, maybe i prefer to shut off emotionally to everyone, etc. No idea, or maybe i'm lazy, heh. Maybe i secretly wish to be angry at people, coz i'm sick of being understanding all the time. Don't laugh, that is something that's really very true, just how often it occurs, that's another thing.

Sometimes because of what i study, i've self-reflected upon a lot of my own actions, and actions of others. I can now come up with many reasons why people do something, although most aren't scientifically established, or at times there are just nonsensical reasons, or sometimes they don't cover the actual reason, because i essentially still don't understand why they do what they do. Therefore on top of my already *ahem* understanding nature, i become even more understanding and even more accomodating. Which is contrary to what i really am, coz sometimes i just wanna throw my temper. Maybe that's why i'm always pissed, because i'm not being true to myself. Or i just use the word and emotion too casually.