Saturday, July 02, 2005
why did u leave me out there in the cold?
My dad's going to japan next month for a business trip, initially i was really excited since my hols were mid july and then i could join him for a japan holiday, go shop expensive, kawaii stuff, live in small hotels that look like spaceships and stuff. But i realised that the trip most probably won't do me much. What i really need, is time for myself to think and set myself back on track. I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay of track now, tired, almost exhausted (with how horribly wrong everything seems to me). It's either i learn to accept that i'm gonna be a loser for the rest of my life now, or pick myself up, stumble, and move along slowly but surely.
Once in a while u meet someone who listens to you, prods you enough to make you open up, tells you that everything is ok, and gives you some ammo to keep you going. Thank you darling.
And one of the reasons why i'll never become anything great is that i'll always need to rely on someone to tell me to keep going. Maybe i should stick to social work and make people's lives better. Sigh. I know there's all that self-motivating shite, lemme slowly pick myself up, otherwise meanwhile i'll just give u brattish answers that will make u wished u didn't bother.
We all build walls around us, one brick a day, but yet deep within us, what we want is to meet someone(s) to tear down this wall and say hey the world isn't that bad a place after all. But how often do you meet such a person, rarely, or maybe it's only me.
Unknown at 12:30 am