Monday, September 27, 2004
Just when you think everything is beginning to look better, life drops you another bomb and brings u back down to earth again, and maybe a crater along the way as a free gift to that. I'm tired, exhausted emotionally. I don't know is it the friends issue or other issues that was the emotional bomb but sequentially it was the friends issue. I feel so tired and depressed to the point that suicide actually popped into my mind. Although i will definitely not commit suicide but when it pops up it's bad. It has been a whirlwind ride up down down down up down down. And i just realised, after sec sch i stopped having best friends. I no longer have a best friend, i only have really good close friends. Is it something about mondays? or sundays? I no longer really trust. I dunno what shit am i mumbling. Just really down now. Rock bottom. And i dunno why. Mummy please come back i don't mind driving with you nagging by my side, i wanna drive now. I was going through my phone book, no one that i really dared to call up to drag to meet me. Why? Why? Why? Too many questions unanswered.
Unknown at 7:48 pm