Friday, January 06, 2006
Looking Back On "Love"
Somehow got triggered to think about this, when i looked at my classmate's friendster photos. I thought about her multiple destructive relationships, and how i thought i was like that at some point of time, or maybe i was mistaken. Ok, perhaps i've never been that destructive, but the string of short relationships did make me wonder where was i heading. And then one day i made a choice, i remember it wasn't like falling head over heels, but i did remember liking him. And that choice became the love of my life and then i really fell head over heels, i do crazy things now too. Funny how things have changed. If you are lucky enough to find someone who made your life better just by being in it, and make you want to be a better person, hold them tight and don't let them go. Ever. Funny how i always worried if my relationships would make it past the 3 mth mark. Amos used to joke about me giving him $10 for every relationship that never made it past that mark, he'd be rich by now. Ok he's exaggerating that he'll be rich, but he'd have gotten quite a bit of money by now. I was so worried when i chose to start the relationship, but days passed, weeks passed, months sailed by. It felt like i haven't been watching the clock or something, but so many months passed me by without me really noticing how long it has been. Sometimes i still worry if someone will pull the carpet under me and then i'd tumble and fall on my bum only to realise that this was a dream, or that somewhere cracks have started to appear but i've just been too blind and insensitive to see it. Hopefully this won't happen and we'll all be happy. Yay.
Other updates: [542/3000; 1.5/10] craving for snacks. time to make a trip to the mama shop.
Unknown at 3:00 pm