Friday, December 31, 2004
It's funny how i thought i don't believe in god but now when a disaster strikes i feel like praying to make the pain of someone go away. I guess it's true it's a crutch people hold on to, to make sense of things when everything else is in a chaotic mess. We're only trying to make sense of such a horrible thing. I wished i could do something, and i wished i could motivate myself to pack clothes or just donate money, but i'm sad to admit i'm too self centered now. I wished i was a trained psychologist then i could render my help to people. I wish, i wish, these all just means that i'm not within the means to do so, or i'm not doing enough. Yeah i think i'll do something good on the last day of 2004, do something good for these people.
And yes throughout the past few days someone has been in my mind more than the sweet fella. Someone else's pain mattered more. Or maybe it's just tt he's the only one in pain.
Unknown at 1:41 am