Tuesday, June 10, 2003
watched finding nemo just now wif jay n remsten. it's quite a sweet movie. really nice. wonder if i shd download how to lose a guy in 10 days or go watch it in a cinema. lately everytime i see him online i wish he would talk to me. dunno y. haha weird. but i enjoy his company the conversations we have. he's intelligent afterall. i like smart guys. so much so i alwez end up being frustrated with them. but i still love them. still keep going over the fact tt maybe if we both put in the effort we can still b together. kinda sad in a way. like more or regret-sad than sad-sad. but it's ok i guess. dunno y i keep going over the fact tt if we had put in tt bit more effort. maybe becoz with him i felt i could love someone again. (sounds farni coming from me) seriously when we first got together i didn't think i could love him. in fact both of us took each other as flings but we nvr said it out. tt time cny he came over n esther said tt ken really loves u. tt's when i really started putting in the effort. i think i've said this story many times eh. at times i really wanna scream and shout n let go of my feelings but i just can't. it just won't come out. tell me how how to let go of these feelings. i just wish it would go away with the waves. wash it all away. thinking of getting a backpack. hmm money. the one i saw is abt $185 whoa... expensive. see how lar. no new trips coming up anyway.
Unknown at 6:49 pm