Saturday, May 17, 2003
somehow i feel that our relationship is now built on fear. or rather now our relationship is shrouded with fear. Fear that i may anger him, fear that i'm talking to him at the wrong time, fear that i'm talking nonsense and may irritate him, fear that our relationship is not stable and may fall apart, fear that he actually doesn't want me anymore, fear that i'm bugging him, fear, fear, fear... Or maybe it's just me again. But at times when i talk to him he seems so distracted and busy that he doesn't want to listen to me, fear he does not want to listen to me. There I go again. FEAR.
Unknown at 11:56 am