Tuesday, May 06, 2003
how do you persuade yourself that u should give up on the person when the feelings grow stronger than ever before. A constant battle between logic and emotions. It seems emotions are winning. I've never realised how much i depended on him. Now i noe. I can't even do a single thing without thinking of him. Telling myself that I'll be able to give him up seems so difficult. It was after esther told me how much ken loved me when he came over my hse for CNY that i really started to pour myself into this relationship. What a mistake it was. Now it made me more difficult to pull myself up. I've lost the strength to stand up on my own. Animes have lost it's meaning. Laughter is forced. I've become clumsy, distracted. A person with fast reflexes now keeps dropping things. Nvm time will tell. I will wait i'll be strong.
Unknown at 7:03 pm