Tuesday, April 22, 2003
Went for my mother's uncle's wake. I dunno wad do i call him in english. He died coz of water retention in his heart. yep heart. I noe it sounds weird but i dunno how either. But the main cause behind it was he was afraid to go to SGH(many reasons y he has to go SGH n not any other hospital which i shan't elaborate) to see a doctor coz of SARS. N then by the time he went to Alexandra hospital it was too late. Sad isn't it. I haven't seem him for quite a few years coz of some quarrel my grandma n him had(another looooooong story) so i din feel that sad, til i saw my grandpa crying. Somehow when i see him cry i get very affected. Maybe coz i dowan to see my loved ones sad, especially my grandpa. Even when i see my mum cry i wasn't affected til i saw my grandpa cry. But then again my mum is a crybaby. Apparently my 3rd granduncle(yeah that's the word) wanted a simple affair for his funeral. I wonder what kind of funeral i would have in future. N all the rites and rituals that they have to do is so confusing. When it reaches my turn i wonder what do i have to do. Sigh. Hope that day is very far away from now.
Unknown at 11:15 pm