Sunday, August 25, 2002
went jogging today after dinner. one of those gotta reduce my flab zap thoughts that got into my little cranky mind. the cool night air was really invigorating must have overstimulated my underdeveloped brain neurons and set me thinking of all the weird stuff that alwez goes through my mind. have you tried giving your all till you nearly can't take it anymore and wanna die?? and then wanna do it all over again. do humans live to give their all? are we all pawns to a greater being? seems very jumbled up eh my thoughts. i know and i don't bother to organize it anyway. jogging is my thoughts clearing session. when i'm alone and the whole world still goes by with a life of it's own. so kewl. a coupla guys cat whistled at me. i wonder what's the real purpose. i mean behind all that wanna "ka-jiao"(disturb) her/ know that gurl. is it an ego trip for them? and what would my response have meant? that they have won? or what does it really come down to mean?
life is either you won or you lose. is it true? is there no place for people who just want to take a walk in the park and smell the roses? or is it a mandate that you have to join the race and try your darndest to win it by givin your all? when can we truly sit down and watch the clouds roll by? when we're too old and haggard and on the brink of life? and when you realise life is really beautiful, you're close to wasting away. irnoic eh. just like not treasuring what you have till it's gone.
Unknown at 11:18 pm